May 13, 2015

You are missed, Daddy.

First, let me say I'm sorry for this post, but I'm taking the blog from Wesley today.

 With this blog I try very much to keep it fun and carefree. Today though I am having problems getting into that particular mindset.

So, instead of trying to force myself into it, I'm just going to let it go. 

And I apologize for that.

Two months ago, on Friday March 13th my father passed away.

Him being so sick these past months and that event are the reasons that Wesley and I went away from Blogville for so long in October and at the beginning of this year. 

I like to tell myself that I'm at peace with his passing.

He was so sick, and always hurting and it was hurting myself and my sister to watch him as he was...because there was nothing we could do to help him. 

All we could do was sit back and worry, and he just loved to tell me 'Amanda, stop worrying so much!'

It was something he told me at least once a day as I worried over him for so many reasons. 

Now I don't have to worry about him anymore, and he's not sick or in pain anymore.

Those thoughts, especially that last one, comfort me.

But I still cry, because I miss my Daddy. 

Very much.

And I am so sorry for being sad on this blog, it's not something I want to make a habit of or ever wanted to do, ever. 

But today I just couldn't do anything else. 


Love and miss you, Daddy.

Tomorrow, I promise, to be back to the regularly scheduled silliness and fun. 


12 comments:

  1. Never apologize for hurting. We are all here for you. You only get one daddy in this lifetime and our daddys are very special to us. Our hearts go out to you. Huge hugs ♥

    Love ya lots♥
    Mitch and Molly

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  2. OMD Mitch and Molly said everything WE were thinking... and they said it SO well.
    We are Glad that you shared the sadness with us... We are here to help you carry the load. It is the Blogville Way...

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  3. It is always difficult to lose a parent.

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  4. Thank you for sharing with us.
    I am so sorry for your loss. Please don't feel bad for the way you feel.
    I still miss my mom, she's been gone for 29 years. I know telling you that won't help the way you're feeling right now. But it's ok to be sad.

    Hugs to you.

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  5. (((((hugs))))

    Never apologizing for hurting or for confiding in friends. Your dad isn't hurting anymore, but that doesn't mean that you aren't, either. You can always talk to us.

    Dachshund Mommy

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  6. We are here for you in happiness and sadness. Don't apologize for your pain. Hugs for you.

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  7. You knows we are always here for you! That you can count on! And if you ever need a {{{hug}}} or a margarita...wells, you know who to call!!! BOL!
    Kisses,
    Ruby ♥
    pees: It's tough being a Daddy's Girl when Daddy is gone. ♥

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  8. Don't apologize for expressing your feelings. We are all here for each other through silliness and sadness. I am sorry your heart is hurting for your daddy.
    BIG Cuddles,
    Oz

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  9. So sorry to hear about your Pops
    Snorts,
    Lily & Edward

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  10. Lots lots of luffs and hugs from us to you
    Loves and licky kisses
    Princess Leah xxx

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  11. I'm so sorry for your loss. When my father passed away in late January I ended up doing a series of blog posts dedicated to him. My father passed very quickly after a brief stay in the hospital and it was a bit shocking for our family. I wanted to share what was happening with my Blogville friends since I knew they would be supportive and want to know what was happening. So never apologize for sharing your sad or happy times with us.

    Hugs to you.

    Cindy

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